Aight,well I got bored with this xanga, so I'm starting a new one. Haha - it's silly, I know. but my new one is XSWORDX. so there you go. heres a link.

http://www.xanga.com/xswordx

Dies Irae is done with your souls.

XXX

So, I've been really happy about things lately, God's just been wanderful to me - and I've just been so happy that I wrote a piano piece about the way that the peace that he's given me sounds in my head. I've appropriately titled it "Acceptance With Joy." So here's a link to whoever wants to hear it. I made it using a midi-keyboard on my computer. Get ready to fall asleep.

Acceptance With Joy - By me.

Oh, and I wrote my first Video Game Power Metal song: Just imagine a Cheap 3D animated Viking kneeling in a burned  village, mourning over his dead family, that was killed by orcs - and then getting really pissed and running off into the "Dark Forest" to slay the foul creatures. Then piling the carcasses and standing on top of them waving his sword and crying out for victory. Here you go. I'm way serious...just imagine it. haha.

Despair in the Forest of "Azech un' Offet Laden" (Blood and Dark Peril) in the reigning of the High Orc - AKA Olafs Requiem - By Me

I love you guys.

So yeah, I think this is the happiest I've been in a long time. I'm just loving things right now, and for some reason, things aren't getting to me like they normally would. I lose my main source of equipment, money still sucks, band practice was cancelled due to the stupid weather, only 1 practice left until our first show - which I'm a little nervous about, and my car died last night.

But I'm just happy. For once, I'm "acceptance with joy"(Hinds Feet on high Places). At least I feel that way. I've been so blessed this month, and I don't know - I just can't be depressed anymore. I think Aaron said it best last night "There's nothing to be pissed off about." I think I'm about to that reasoning. BTW last night was one of the best local shows I've been to in a long time, the most I've ever danced, and the funniest fights ever.

If you guys need the pit to be cleared of those stupid Mallrat Mashers...Just call Aaron - He bersekred the whole pit, and shoved a mallrat through a door and down a stair case and did a 10 second hair whip on the conquered battlefield - leaving the pit open for all of the dancers - just in time. haha. It was beutiful. Just ask me if you wanna know what happened the rest of that night, good stuff.

Ehh, well due to the car situation - no Vineyard tonight, so I'm gonna try and find some nice stuff in the Bible to read. I've been reading so much of it lately - in fact I'm almost done with Genesis, and half way through Mathew. Good stuff. It's funny reading about the Jebusites...which means there had to be a place called Jebus. Haha

I write too much, later.

I love you

Listening to: With Honor

So yeah, things are pretty cool. For some reason I've seemed to be pretty happy lately. Feels really good. Last night: me, casey, mike and ryan hung out with sevanah(sp?) and lauren. Good times, we watched the peter jackson master piece that is :Dead Alive. I just love that movie, my favorite thing about the movie (besides pj's haircuts) is the kung-fu priest.

So yeah, after that we had a cookie fight, wich somehow turned into a huge ball of really pointy tape fight: wich eventually evolved into Ryan putting on a wizards hat and wig and head banging(I might post some pics later) Then after that we decided to go chill with our homeboys Meeker and Jesse over at Aarons crib, good times - Super Smashbros and Soul Caliber is what it's all about now. Then late night talks about James Bong, Doug Pudd, and Dick Nibbler were always fun. Oh, then right before we went to sleep: While trying to protect myself from getting my balls stomped on by Mr. Aaron: My refelexs were so quick that I smacked myself in the nuts. heh. Go figure.

So, anyways. Jamie from Another Way asked Ryan and I to be their new guitarists for a while, until they get things settled. Which depending on how things go, may mean we're going to New York, and maybe even tour with Comeback Kid. But for right now it's just temp. until they find somebody else.

Either way, mine and Ryans hearts belong to ACTA - so no worries, we wouldn't ditch out on our Jesus and our best friends. But we do wanna help out our friends if we can. I think the main reason Ryan and I wanna do this is because like 5 minutes before they called, we were talking about how bad we wanted to start a SxE old school hardcore side project...so maybe this will give us a run at it. Should be fun.

Nothing is set in stone yet, but we'll find out for sure on Tuesday.

See you guys on the 30th.

much love.

"I kick ass for the Lord."

Wow, so I think i have some things to give to God tonight.

Jamie from Another Way is coming by to pick up my friends cabinet i was borrowing for a long time. Which is cool, it's just that I've been relying on that thing for a while, and now I'm out of a guitar cab. Not to mention i still owe this guy money. Oh well, I guess I need this in order to give myself a kick in the butt to go out and get my own. Now we have our first show in 2 1/2 weeks, and i might not have anything to practice or play with. Oh well, my fault for procrastinating.

Next, When I moved out of the APT. we didn't really tell the owners about it, and now that Dan is moving out - It's probably time that they know people are moving out or have left...which means we're breaking the lease. So I'm worried about that - because it may be 75$+ that i don't have. But I deserve it, I should have taken things a bit more seriously and been a bit more cautious. I'm such a pudd. I guess I'll know what's happening on Saturday.

So, I guess it's time to get serious. This is the part where I have to ask the Lord to take control - because i know if I try to, I'll just screw things up again...I guess a big thing about being a Christian is learning that no one can save themselves. So I guess this is part of me learning that lesson. One of my biggest problems is stepping outside of my comfort zone. My biggest problem is being chained down by my conscience. But i'm working through that with the help of JC.

Guys, i really need your prayers. There's so much crap just piling up, I'm suprised I haven't lost my cool yet. Thanks to everyone who's ever helped me out in a tight spot, been there for me you know...If I could help anyone, if I had anything to offer - i'd be there for you guys. i'm sorry.i've just realised how much of a bum i've always been - i hardly ever buy anything for anyone, or just give someone a few bucks when they need it, maybe that's why I suck with money, is because i have no charity. If I had money , I'd change that right now.

Enuff type, go to sleep now.

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